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I have yet to remove my amalgams but I will as soon as I can. I'm wondering how you guys get over your anger towards what has been done to you in terms of being subjected to toxins of all sorts. I want to try to stay positive but it just makes me sick how the government is controlling our minds just like in WW 2 with the fluoridated water to make the Jews stupid and docile. I have done very poorly in school due to my diagnosis of ADD, OCD, Tourretes, depression, etc.. However right now I'm doing the master cleanse(the lemonade fast) and am on day 8 and I've never felt better in my entire life. All my disorders just disappeared. Hmmmmmm I think I see a connection here. I just want to get over my anger and fear and love just like the hippy I am. Suggestions? Peace <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/smileyfamily.gif" alt="" />

I'm not sure I got over my anger or not. I feel it is there always below the surface or a deep sense of sadness or something. I know that it is fruitless to feed it. I cannot change the circumstances through raging. I acknowledge my silent anger, because it's a righteous anger, but I try not to allow myself to be eaten up by it because I value myself, even if the mercury or the people who introduced it to amalgams do not. You must do the same if you can. I do have pain, it's there I can feel it now just typing this. I don't think it's ever really gone, but it hides. I don't believe it is unhealthy to cry either and i've done much of that. It is a release and it's good to do this sometimes.

I've spent many years in rages, terrible grief and temptation to self harm or worse, possibly also due to the direct effects of mercury (which can cause rage). it is very hard to tell whether it's rage induced by the toxicity, or a combination of that plus the years lost needlessly! I can recall the suffering and it's painful to think back, it wells up, but I try and look at it like an old movie, it's in the past, I'm still sick yes, but adding to it by dwelling on the past as well.....I have more than enough in the present!

I've had this for most of my life, young adult years pretty much gone up in smoke....Does it do any good to think back and dwell on this? no. Not one bit. Tried it many times, didn't give the years back, doesn't help me, doesn't help my future. I try and use what I've lost and gone through to connect with others going through the same thing and knowing I'm not alone, I've got more on the same path, behind me, ahead of me, beside me. I try and share with them some things that helped me or some things I did wrong too, hoping they might avoid the same pitfalls.

I do what I can (within reason) to improve my health, even if it's minimal, i do it. I change my diet and only eat the foods that do my body good. I do my best to ignore cravings for the bad foods because they only do me bad. I stay strict and disciplined to achieve any relief at all, that is my responsibility, nobody else can or will do that for me. I have no excuse, I have control over what foods I put into my mouth and what drinks I put in there. It does not cost me anything to exchange the good for the bad, other than temporary cravings which is not much to put up with considering what I've suffered with this poison. I take supplements that I think may help me and I read things that I think offer some more suggestions and try them if/when I can.

If I am powerless to improve my condition beyond a certain point, even with marathon efforts, then I try not to allow anger or grief to overtake me because I know it's not my fault. I am trying, I have tried so I cannot beat myself up for anything and past mistakes? They're gone, i can't take it back and undo it.

The years behind me are gone, whether they were full of pleasures and health or sickness and suffering, they are gone! There is only the present and the future is never certain. For me as a believer, I don't look upon this life as "everything", but that still doesn't make it easy for me as I'm just human. That's how I try and get through eachday, I fail, but I have to keep getting back up. I guess I could let myself be very easily overtaken and eaten up, it's there, the potential for that is there and I can feel it, but somehow I keep going and try and look beyond that and find something else to use it for.

It's not easy, I never expected my life would be like this. sometimes it seems like a weird dream I'll wake up from, but I don't. So I have to get on with it and I've become so much more aware of other people going through their own sufferings and battles and realise, there are a lot of people out there with a very heavy cross to bear. I need to remind myself of this, because I think you can go mad otherwise!

Be kind to yourself, be healing to yourself and do all things that your body desperately needs to heal. Don't let even righteous anger punish your already's punished body/mind. It's hard, but try and direct it into taking action with your lifestyle and finding ways of living your life around this (within reason, if you can), and do whatever is necessary to rid your body of toxins, so that it may better handle the mercury. There is a certain anger that can go along with mercury and you must not confuse this with "normal anger". If it is mercurial, sometimes there is no way to fight it and don't pressure yourself by feeling bad for having it. The same with severe depression and anxiety or any other awful or weird mental effects. THe key is to recognise this and understand that it isnt "you". That's not easy to do.

One very good rule of thumb for successful living is... put your troubles behind you and move forward.

Move forward.

You cannot change the past, you can rearrange your future. As the bible says, forgive.

But do not forget all things, especially your own errors lest you make them again.

Seek Jesus, and his plan for your life. God has a purpose for all of us, it's up to us to step up to the plate with him, and walk the direction he wants us to walk to fulfill that purpose.

Thanks guys I'll try my best to stay positive.

You're welcome mega, don't force yourself to pretend happiness if it's not there. The mercury can cause severe mental symptoms, so it just depends on where it is, and what it's doing. if you "can" be positive, outside of the mercury, then all you can do is your best at those times and somehow try and keep going forward.

There are people who may not have suffered from mercury or other kind of toxicity, but have had other, horrid challenges. God gives us all a row to hoe. Sorry to preach religion, I am not religious, but that is how I see it. In no way am I making light of your challenges.

mega I think I understand your feelings. For years I keep pounding my head ("literally") because It seemed I was always in a fog. There were those few days that I would be clear, I don't know how, but I could think and had good recall memory. Oh how I wish to have gone through my youth and not have had this burden! I think that I now have a more focused anger and that is not particularly bad. I didn't know what was causing all my pain before --- BUT I do now! Now I try to turn that anger into excitement because 1/2 the battle has been won. For what I know, many of our conditions can be reversible (possible cured) if we try, and I try to let my family, friends, and those around me about about the horrors of Mercury Poisoning. That has really helped me to start the healing process.