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I cant believe over the last few weeks my panic and depression have subsided tremendously. Unfortunately my anger has got considerably worse again. I wake up with it in the morning and it lasts all day. I never hardly shout at the kids although I do snap answers sometimes. But today its been a beautiful day and I have achieved a great deal, been out in the garden a lot, done lots of jobs and the garden looks absolutely fantastic. When I was well I would have sat back surveyed all I'd achieved, relaxed and felt so happy. Now I walk around the house slamming every door possible and feel an anger inside so strong that it is 100 x worse than pre-menstrual tension - sorry to all the men folk- but its the only way I can describe it. Ive even driven twice today which I really enjoy. But I have found no pleasure in anything and I just dont understand, who is this person and where the hell does it come from. I hate this more than anything because if anything this is like the opposite me who use to find pleasure in the smallest of things. Does anyone else feel like this. Magnesium makes no difference at all. luv Tracy x

Not knowing your age, Tracy, I wonder if this could be perimenopause. It plays havoc with your hormones? You can experience every emotion in the book in 5 minutes. Honestly, I have heard someone who said that they had this experience. Hope that I don't insult you. This may not be the problem. If it is, however, it is just as merciless as mercury poisoning. Dr. Lee has some interesting info for women in their 40s and 50s.

Tracy, I have heard of some people getting this from time to time in regards to mercury. Could be some stored up mercury in your body moved around some and indirectly affected some gland or system in your body that triggered the anger. The body is so intricate-- and I believe everything in the body has an influence with each other.

I don't think it is brain damage of any sort though-- just an indirect reaction caused by old mercury stores triggering something else.

I've been taking fish oil (mercury tested version) and when I heard that oil of evening primrose is ideal to take for not only PMS sufferers, but also bipolar sufferers, I began taking that too. I won't be without it- it has balanced my emotions during PMS like you wouldn't believe. Even without the fishoil capsules. I would not only get depressed during PMS, but also angry and moody. Like Jekyl and Hyde.

Not to compare what you are going through with PMS, but maybe there is a connection there that it may help your body in some way.

Also, I reccomend you getting the book, Energy Healiing by Donna Eden. I have this book and love it-- In one of her chapters, she has step by step instructions of an excersize you can do to release anger from the body. I tried it, and even though I wasn't angry, I felt a definite positive calming reaction.

HI Tracy, anger is mainly mercury (can be candida also). But I know what part of it was mercury and it was frightening. Rages, odd jealousy, hatred, throwing something, and yes slamming doors or feeling as though you might hurt somebody.

Mercury can cause extreme and irrational rages or over things that are not "that bad", but will seem it to yourself. Overreacting etc. IT is awful and if someone detoxes enough from it and heals, they are totally different people, almost opposite of what they had been.

WHen you consider it has this profound effect, it has to make you wonder how many people have this and dont know and are known as "moody or angry people".....when they may actually be mercury toxic.

I cannot tell you what helps, because I dont remember what aided me back then other than the diet and hanging on I guess. Chelating the right way did over time because it took the cause away (mercury).

I have often wondered how many people with road rage are mercury toxic....and the violence in youth and gangs is becoming so much more widespread.

Mine is much better when I watch my diet, but the metals chemo really made me negative and depressed just like the mercury did. It is just starting to wear off now. Prayer gets me thru alot of it, but I really have to watch what I eat, even moreso now.

Hope you get over this hurdle soon Tracy, and feel better soon.

best love,
Sandi
xoxo

I am so afraid guys. many of my other symptgoms I have learnt to deal with, but this anger is getting worse, I never believed I could ever feel like this. I wake up with it now every morning and its there all day. I never would never lay a finger on my kids and never would but I snap and they know theres somewthing very wrong. They have chosen to stay away from home as much as possible , even sleeping at friends houses. I cannot believe the things I do. Last night I ripped up the only photo Keith has of his mum and dad and his dad is dead, I Knew I was doing it but couldnt stop myself and at the same time felt so ashamed. I dont understand cos nothing changed I have a beautiful house children and partner but I am turning into this monster that I cant control and hate. Last night I even packed a bag with the intention of going away cos I dont know where this will end and if I trust myself. Honestly I am more frightened of being this than dead. Hugs Tracy I am so scared, Im everything Ive never been

Tracy you said your naturopath was helping you . . . have you contacted her? Are you getting treatment for hypothyroid yet? What is your diet like? Blood sugar crashes can make even otherwise healthy people volatile.

Unfortunately Linda been there tried all that nothing works and I would never have believed this illness could progress the way it has. But unfortunately for some of us there seems to be no answer. I know of at least one other person on this forum is suffering just as much as me.I have spent thousnds in the last year and been made so many promises. Nothing paid off Tracy

It sounds like you've very discouraged Tracy. I'd like to think that we here might have some ideas for you; I don't believe that any case is hopeless. Have you tried the Paleo diet? Are you treating your thyroid problem? What supplements has your naturopath got you taking? Are you taking any medications?

There's another thread here where someone wrote in saying they were fed up with trying things that didn't work, they were giving up, and just trying to get on with their life. For many who are very ill, this is not an alternative; as frustrating as it may be, keep looking and you will find answers. Once you find a way of eating, and supplements, that work for you, these things are deeply healing. Your body does need nutrients and it ingests things like vitamin C to some degree. You won't be allergic to the vitamin itself, it is necessary for life, but you may be having problems with supplement forms. You might look into trying one that is plant-derived, which is as close to eating it from food as it comes.

Hang in there Tracy. If you can give us some more info maybe we can help. There seems to be a lot of good holistic knowledge of this forum.

Linda.

hi tracy: hope you are feeling better soon. I had read a article a while back on hormones and how they affect mood and behavior in both woman and men and what the researchers had found was that certain hormones mainly estrogen in high levels can cause uncontrolled anger and aggresive behavior .in part of there study they took blood samples from female prison inmates that were known violent offenders and what they found was that most of the blood samples from the violent inmates were very high in estrogen way above avarage when compared to non violent offenders ,then the researchers took samnples from male body builders that were known steroid users and found the same high levels in men ,this type of anger was nick named (roid rage) what was happening was the hi levels of testosterone being used for bodybuilding were being converted to estogen at higher than average levels for a man ( normaly men produce estrogen but at a much lower levels that a woman) there conclution was that some how the liver was not able to balance the estrogen via the pituatary and hypothalamus ,the liver was either overworked and not able to balance the hormones (in the case of the body builders)or not funtioning properly in the case of the female inmates.

You know mate I think your spot on just been posting Dawn and she has the same problem, so does Clare. When I first got ill, I instinctively thought my hormones were certainly involved in some way as my normal 28 day cycle went erratic and I ended up having 3 periods in 4 weeks. I have told numerous docs about this and what have they done, yes I bet you guessed it , offered me anti- depressants, even when Ive explained the symptoms I had cancerous cells burnt off my cervix 6 years ago Ive also informed them of this as Im suppose to go for a test every year, but that was when I lived down South. since Ive been back in the Midlands I havnt been offered one single check. Funny enough my mum had the same thing at the same age. My conclusion the doctors here are a complete waste of time. They have made that of my life and my families hell. I just said to Dawn I wish we could all live in a huge commune and get alternative therapists in who know what they are doing and the kids could hang out together. I think this modern world stinks and Ive told Keith that if I have it out with the doctor and he suggests nothing new I am definately taking myself off to the coast somewhere camping and isolated. Did it last year didnt want to come back lots of love Tracy

i read that the liver can cause anger, as estrogen can build up in an unhealthy liver, it makes sense. I know my liver is bad and i have to take great care of it, im not doing anymore chelation until im done with cleansing. Im waiting for humaworm which should be here any day, been doing coffee enemas for quite a while and alot of bowel cleansing
and after the parasite clearout, i will do hulda clarks liver flush, which is amazing, and hopefully my channels will be opened up, so i can chelate better.

Things like deep breathing and relaxation can help as can trying to talk to others about things that leave you feeling angry rather than bottling them up.

Richard mate sorry, and I would never intentionally be rude, but that really is the biggest load of crap anyone has suggested to me. This is not controllable anger, with any relaxation techniques. I have taught disruptive and Autistic children for years. Try to teach them to relax. They cant cos something has affected their brains. This anger is caused by poison. You cannot control it, it controls you. I was the most peaceful, laid back person you could ever meet. I know all about techniques and if I thought for one minute they'd work, I'd be there mate. They don't and sorry for being embarrassing but Mercury messes up hormones and us poor females get the anger before our periods, like pre-menstrual tension but 100x worse, and no woman I've ever met has been able to control that. Tracy

If they dont work for you dont use them. They can work for me and i'm poisoned. They are not a complete answer in themselves but i believe they can and do make a difference. Also i dont mean to be rude but i have worked in mental health for twenty years working on some of the most disturbed psychiatric wards so i know a bit about what can make a difference

iN THAT CASE YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO HEAL YOURSELF SORRY BUT YOUR LAID BACK APPROACH IS STARTING TO REALLY PISS ME OFF IF YOU'VE WORKED ON PSYCHIATRIC UNITS YOU SHOULD KNOW HOW TO SORT YOURSELF OUT AND EITHER YOUR BLOODY POISONED OR NOT YOU COME ACROSS AS BEING VERY PATRONIZING AND IT TAKES A GREAT DEAL TO PISS ME OFF BUT TWO PEOPLE HAVE POSTED ME TODAY AND SAID WHY THE HELL DO YOU EVEN BOTHER COMING ON HERE WITH THIS STUFF. i'VE ALSO HAD TO DEAL WITH SOMEONE WHO IS READY TO TAKE THEIR OWN LIVES GOD FORBID THEY DO SORRY BUT IM RATHER UPSET AND DONT WANT OR NEED A LECTURE TRACY

Maybe they do work for some people, but having been on psychiatric wards, i know how inadequate some of their suggestions are. Those techniques don't stand a chance in working for me. Mercury and other dental foci can cause so much havoc mentally, that relaxation techniques are simply a nonsense and totally insulting to those who are severely poisoned brain wise. And it's those suggestions that make the anger worse, because it feels like we aren't being understood at all by those who are getting paid to. If psychiatric units were any good Richard, i would be cured a decade ago and wouldn't need this forum, don't mean to be rude about it.

You know me very well Chris and it takes a lot to get me worked up but Richard posted this morning that he didnt even believe that Mercury was his problem, just years of abuse from beer and fags and stuff. If you've worked on a pyschiatric unit for twenty years and seen how people really suffer I dont understand why you would say that and then talk about relaxaing crap. We are poisoned, we cant control when we can relax and i for one have so many physical symptoms it just ain't possible. Sorry if I lost it Chris but I can't stand when people come on with such stupid advice. Anything sensible and helpful I'm fully open to. Cheers mate Tracy xxxxxx

Dr Lee reccomends using progesterone cream for PMS perimenopause and various other conditions. Whenever you take hormones , you interfere with your ability to produce them yourself. Unfortunately, a few years ago, I used progesterone cream for PMS. It did'nt help, made me feel disorieted and since I stopped using it my hormones have been out of balance.If you want to become pregnant it's not good to interfere with progesterone synthesis.

Hi Tracy, they say the seat of anger can be the liver (one organ mercury effects profoundly). I have been a victim of this anger, I know what it is like and treating the gut and liver simultaneously "may" aid some of this becuase it's probably toxic load on that organ.

I find if the gut isn't treated, it remains a continual strain for the liver from yeast, yeast byproducts and the fact that if the gut is sick the liver cops so much more of the load, including the mercury.

I dont know if much can help, other than diet and supplements that may aid the liver at the sametime like milk thistle, and taking homeopathic support for it. I would definitely get into supporting your liver though, because for sure anger is usually related to that organ.

I did say Tracy that i thought mercury maybe part of my problem but not the whole picture and questioned whether removal had been the best course of action for me.

Mediation and relaxation techniques amongst others can and are useful for a wide range of people with all sorts of difficulties. Meditation is used well to help some people who are terminally ill for instance. I can and do find these approaches useful myself and have seen others benefit. I dont think Its the whole answer but for me it can often be the difference between making the unbearable more bearable and manageable. I think in essence thats all ive said and certainly did not mean to cause offence

no amount of deep breathing does a thing for me
If it were that easy, wouldnt life be sweet!

I have one heck of a time focusing long enough to meditate or deep breath, my mind keeps drifting to other things, mercury makes my mind go a million miles a minute. I don't think many therapists understand that....but I still try. My new dr told me that mediation works wonders to help our bodies cure themselves...it can actually change our attitude and let's face it, attitude is everything!!!

So I will keep trying!!!! <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/smirk.gif" alt="" /> Keep on keepin' on!!!! <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/cool.gif" alt="" />

Sandi
xoxo

The autumn just before the depression began, I was taking an evening course in tai chi. It was something I'd been wanting to learn for years and was loving it. I have always enjoyed meditation and energy techniques.

Then the depression started. The tai chi classes gradually became a chore, something I had to do because I wanted to learn. I was incapable of getting enjoyment out of it. When I tried to practise at home I found that it was a chore as well. The sense of peace and calm I used to get was gone. My body just didn't want to do it and my brain wasn't cooperating either.

I believe these techniques can be very healing, but when you are dealing with depression or anxiety or anything like that, they can make it very hard to get anything out of it. Do you know what it is like to feel this way Richard? Most people I talk to can't understand how I can say these things, unless they have been through this experience themselves.

I am waiting until I feel better so that I can attend a tai chi group that meets locally once a week. I've been there several times with the intention of re-learning and getting that enjoyment again, but it just doesn't work. I live in hope.

If your mind is wandering it could be a toxic liver - not everything is mercury only. Need 3 months of this:


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I also have high estrogen levels and some people think I'm on the aggressive side . High estrogen levels can result from adrenal exaustion due to chronic pain and many of us have TMJ.I think my TMJ is caused by mercury so ultimately my high estrogen is related to mercury toxicity .
During the middle of a woman's cycle, her testosterone levels are their highest and testosterone counteracts the effects of estrogen . This is probably why anger and depression are greatly reduced on these days.
Tracy probably has excess estrogen or she would'nt have three periods in four weeks.

You can't detox with steroids decreasing your liver's ability to detox

Do you know whats really weird the day I got really pissy and angry I started my period that night. I have told the doc that I had Cervical cancer and should have a smear test every year. Since I moved back to the Midlands Ive only been recalled once, Doc is looking into this. But when things kicked off with my son I felt an urgent need to go to the loo and absolutely flooded out. Sorry to all the guys. When I had a similar illness 20 years ago I had fantastic health visitor who had had to spend some time on a psychiataric unit. When I told her about my problem she said you need some progesterone badly. She went to the docs and got it for me . A few months later all symptoms had gone. Makes you wonder love to all Tracy xxxxxxx

You might not have low progesterone and high estrogen if you never had amalgam fillings.

Don't know if this will help but sugar and caffeine caused depression and anger in me when I was mercury toxic.

progesterone is the balancer of testosterone and estrogen in both men and women ,if your body is low in progesterone than testosterone and estrogen get out of whack ,and cause all kinds of hormonal related problems

I have got some progesterone I think I'm going to give it another try. As I said last time I did absolutely nothing else at all and after using the progesterone for about 6 months got better. Tracy

Tracy, i would like to try some progesterone cream, do you know where i can get some, cheers, Dawn.

Vit B6 zinc and other supplements can increase progesterone . Estrogen excess can be reduced by a low fat diet high in raw vegetables and fruit. It also helps to avoid petrochemicals , plastics and other xenoestrogens.Obesity can result in high estrogen.Liver detox is also helpful and hormone supplements interfere with liver detox.

Did you try taking magnesium supplements? If you are not on any prescription drugs then you might want to try taking some St. John's Wort St John's Wort shouldn't be taken if you are taking any antidepressants. If you are taking any other prescription drugs, then ask you doctor first before taking St. John's Wort. I am not taking St. John's Wort now, however it has helped me in the past. It made me drowsy, so I took it at night. I took one or two 300 mg capsules 0.3% hypericin standardized. It helped decrease my appetite and lose weight. It also helped me sleep better. It decreased the irritability. St John's Wort is also said to have anti candida properties. One side effect of St. John's Wort is that it makes one more sensitive to the sun so they can sunburn easier. When taking St. John's Wort try to limit sun exposure.

Here's some information on a more natural type of progesterone cream (as opposed to synthetic progestin and other hormones made from horse urine):

Pro-G-Yam 500 Cream

Hope this helps,