It might not be a bad idea to lower the dose a bit Linda, especially if the bad is interfering with your ability to do your job and live the rest of your life.

Its interesting what you mentioned about the real 'me' beneath all of this. A lot of our personalities are a result of the ways we have chosen to cope with the effects of mercury. I have felt poisoned since a little child, and would tell me mom something was wrong and I remember having strong anxiety even at 4-5 years old. My grandpap died when I was 5 and I remember thinking how nice it was that he never had to worry about anything ever again. Because of how sensitive I was I liked spending a lot of time by myself...but all of these traits were my way of coping with the mercury and are changing as the mercury is leaving my brain and body.